Kindergarten

I don't even want to say the word. Bree will head to kindergarten in the fall of 2014. That leaves just a year and half o have her to myself. I am so not ready to think about this. Every aspect of sending her to kindergarten makes me sad. I am sad that she won't be with me, sad that Eli & Toby will spend a good chunk of the day without her, sad to send her off to an environment that I have absolutely no control over, sad that the other kids may not always be nice, and sad that my baby is getting so big. This is a part of motherhood I wasn't prepared for, I never dreamed it would be this difficult to sit back and let my kids grow without holding their hand all of the time. It feels like someday I'm going to wake up and find myself watching proudly as her daddy walk her down isle. The reality of how fast time truly moves has set in as I'm filling out applications for preschool next fall. A huge part of my wants to homeschool her, to keep we with me where I know she is safe. But the tiny voice inside my head knows better. So come September 2014 she will head off to elementary school; and I will be left sitting in the car with tear stained cheeks watching as my 6lbs brown eyed beautiful baby girl excitedly runs into future, wondering where the years have gone. I'm so proud of her and I love her dearly. If you knew her, you couldn't help but love her too. She has one of the kindness souls I've ever seen. My little girl is going to do great things someday, how lucky I am to be her mother.